Over the past few months, im. Truly deeply madly in love with you.. I hope this feeling grow stronger everytime.
And yes, I love you ohhh so much too....
My Dear Rina, I constantly thank Allah that you came into my life as a perfect woman to guide me in this life of mine. In my eyes, you are a god given gift for me and I cant thank HIM enough.
Alhamdulillah.
I LOVE U SO MUCH SHAHFAH RINA!!!!
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MXPX-One step closer to life
Some would say tomorrow is just one step closer to death
I'd say tomorrow is just one step closer to life
And understanding and to know it's gonna be alright
So in conclusion have I made my decisions clear?
With every passing moment of my life this year
Well not exactly so that's what I am doing here
No one's on display
And no one's gonna be passed around today
I won't let it happen, if I can help it
Take your inconsistence away
Would it be right to say that no one ever truly listens?
Or takes the time to understand what something means
Without opinion, bias, without a one-track mind
What can be done to change a habit born in our minds?
First step to Kiros is to take the shells out of our eyes
And then to wonder, enjoy life, maybe even relax, even relax
Finally! Im back to revive this blog from extinction!!been months since my last post..and ever since then,a couple of life changing events happen..
Firstly, looking back at my last post about my grandma, Im sad to say my beloved grandma passed away on the 9th of March 2013. A sad day to remember but a lifetime of good memories. You will always be in my heart nenek. I will constantly pray for you. Al-Fatehah.
Secondly, on a happy note, my youngest sister Nani got married on 9th of this month! Happy to see her becoming a wife and also....to get out of the HOUSE!!hahahah...
Finally, on a much happiest note, my dear Shahfah Rina finally agreed to marry me!!!!wohoo!!!!!
*Jumping on my bed* Alhamdulilah..i should say.
Sayang,ever since you came into my life, you have given me happiness and a thought for a change in me to become a better person. I am so grateful ,Alhamdulilah, that God has allow us to meet together.
When we first met, i knew you lighted up the love spark in me.*winks*. Your beauty, smile,laughter, advice (and so on) that makes me attracted to an awesome lady like u!! I love u so much Shahfah Rina Binte Raman Shah. (hahaha,have to remember your full name coz I need to say it during our special day)
My Dear, You are something I always hope for and will cherish forever. I love you so much that I cant stop saying those 3 words. I want to be the man who is beside you when u wake up and when u sleep,the man who nurses you from sickness to health, who console you in times of sadness and grief. I wanna be your man.
"This world is just a temporary comfort,
and the best comfort in this world is a righteous woman"
and the best comfort in this world is a righteous woman"
[Narrated by Imam Bukhari]
You are a righteous woman,my Dear.and you comfort me.
Wasallam.
I have been procasinating about working out and keeping fit for the past few months and now look where it has gottten me....
A FEW WEEKS AGO, I WEIGH MYSELF AND I NOW WEIGH FREAKING 70KG!!!
Seriously i have never hit the 70 kg mark before and I was really shocked and disappointed at myself. THUS,I have made resolution to keep fit this year and no more procasinating anymore!!!
I believe in time as I gain my fitness back,I shall be in shape and cut down my weight naturally.
I need to stay motivated,disciplined and push myself to stay fit always.Not just this year but throughout my lifetime.
1st Target-Getting GOLD in my IPPT!!!!!I CAN DO IT!!!
This week has been an emotional roller coaster ride for me.
SADNESS&FEAR
Seeing my grandma in pain and torture-like sickness has really taken a toll in me.Seeing her cry,screaming in pain,not eating very well,sick and frail. Witness her in those conditions really has put me beyond SADNESS.This emotional sadness has put me in a emotions I have never felt before.My relatives,everyone of them,shed a tear looking at the her condition.Instead,I try to put up a brave front with her and my loved ones.acting as per normal.Telling her and everyone its going to be OKAY.But deep down,I know its not and one day she will succumb to the cancer.
I had a couple of dreams where I was taken aback to the days as a young boy spending quality time with my grandma.How I wish that dream would come true.During those times where she would pick me up from school and buy me my fav A&W curly fries without fail....and protect me from the scoldings of my parents everytime I did something wrong.Those are only the few things out of the thousand love care and concern she have for me.
I FEAR the day will come when I wake up,knowing she will no longer be around.I dread everytime a phone call from the hospital.Fearing some bad news will come..I FEAR.im so afraid she will no longer be around.BUT i know that day will come.I just dont want it to...
I wanna cry.Yes I do..I wanna let it all out.these emotions in me.my sadnes and fear.Only GOD knows what im going thru right now..no one else know.I Wanna stop putting up a brave front and cry..yes i do...
I miss all those times with u nenek.I really do.I just wish ure healthy again.
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