I have been procasinating about working out and keeping fit for the past few months and now look where it has gottten me....
A FEW WEEKS AGO, I WEIGH MYSELF AND I NOW WEIGH FREAKING 70KG!!!
Seriously i have never hit the 70 kg mark before and I was really shocked and disappointed at myself. THUS,I have made resolution to keep fit this year and no more procasinating anymore!!!
I believe in time as I gain my fitness back,I shall be in shape and cut down my weight naturally.
I need to stay motivated,disciplined and push myself to stay fit always.Not just this year but throughout my lifetime.
1st Target-Getting GOLD in my IPPT!!!!!I CAN DO IT!!!
This week has been an emotional roller coaster ride for me.
SADNESS&FEAR
Seeing my grandma in pain and torture-like sickness has really taken a toll in me.Seeing her cry,screaming in pain,not eating very well,sick and frail. Witness her in those conditions really has put me beyond SADNESS.This emotional sadness has put me in a emotions I have never felt before.My relatives,everyone of them,shed a tear looking at the her condition.Instead,I try to put up a brave front with her and my loved ones.acting as per normal.Telling her and everyone its going to be OKAY.But deep down,I know its not and one day she will succumb to the cancer.
I had a couple of dreams where I was taken aback to the days as a young boy spending quality time with my grandma.How I wish that dream would come true.During those times where she would pick me up from school and buy me my fav A&W curly fries without fail....and protect me from the scoldings of my parents everytime I did something wrong.Those are only the few things out of the thousand love care and concern she have for me.
I FEAR the day will come when I wake up,knowing she will no longer be around.I dread everytime a phone call from the hospital.Fearing some bad news will come..I FEAR.im so afraid she will no longer be around.BUT i know that day will come.I just dont want it to...
I wanna cry.Yes I do..I wanna let it all out.these emotions in me.my sadnes and fear.Only GOD knows what im going thru right now..no one else know.I Wanna stop putting up a brave front and cry..yes i do...
I miss all those times with u nenek.I really do.I just wish ure healthy again.
Kindness.Pay it Forward
Watching the above video made me realise that there are people out there who portray kindness in their life no matter what or where the situation is..other choose to hide it.like the situation above.Well,people will always have their own views and reasons.If only Humanity have kindness naturally instilled in their minds and hearts,Im sure this world would be a better place to live in.
As for now,we can take good example of this video.and let this be a lesson for all of us.
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