Love is more than just a four letter word.
Sunday March 18 2012.Finally after much procasinating to create a blog,i did one.Lets move right on to my 1st post/subject.
LOVE.
love[luhv] noun, verb, loved, lov·ing.
.a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another personb
happens to almost everyone in their lifetime.Love for GOD,parents,friends or special frens and so on..but for me,LOVE has a name.Shahfah Rina.the girl that i fell in love at 1st sight till now.though we known each other thru means of social network(friendster to be exact) and how in 2009 i 1st met her.i am truly amazed how my journey throughout this friendster have turn out to something deeper than i thought.
The dates.the smses.the pictures.the gifts.all the things that put a smile on my face.Honestly speaking i think abt her day and night.every day without fail.But here i am wondering whether is she thinking abt me too? I guess thats part and parcel of being in love,to know whether the person u love is thinking abt u..(wondering....and wondering)
I hope she does.BUT(theres always a but)i remeber how in DEC 2011 she told me that she felt bad that she actually made me fall in love with her.and up till now she hasnt really confess whether she actually love me too..i know for a fact that she broke up from a long relationship and now she is jittery to fall in love with someone else..if i was in her shoes,i would prolly feel the same thing.
Despite all that ive known abt her past and the stories she told me,it made me wanting to know her more and through this process,i begin to fall in love with her..trust me i really do.Not much of my love story i have reveal to my frens and family.but those who know my story has ask me..
WHY DO U LOVE HER?
The question that bugs me for a while now like a stubborn flu which doesnt want to go away.
"She doesnt say she love you", "Its only on your part u feel this way lah","Maybe she only treats you as a fren","She likes going out with you doesnt mean she loves u ok!!"
The statements i got from my frens..why?why bro?,they ask me.why u love her?
I ask myself .ask my inner self..why?for the past few days ive been wanting to know the answer..
Issit because she looks gorgeous?*she is but thats not it....moving on..
Issit because she makes u feel loved?*in a way she does,but hmm not the answer
Issit because you feel her kindness and concern towards people?*maybe yes maybe no..
WHY?OH WHY DO I FEEL LOVE FROM HER??
Days past and past and finally,ALhamdulilah.I knew what it was.
Conclusion:
There is NO REASON whatsoever.yes u read that right.!!no reason at all.I love her for what she is without any physical or character attributes.why is that so????if i love rina for a reason like the question above-what if the reason is no longer there(eg if i loved her for kindness and beauty,what if she is no longer having that attributes)will i still loved her??
AND THATS the BEAUTY about LOVE!!without any reason or cause.it just happens!i dont need a freaking reason why!!!coz i simply love her for what she is!!i never felt this way about someone and honestly,i was having doubts coz i cldnt find any reason before..but now i know why..
Gosh it took a long time there to think about an answer.All praises to Allah SWT for guiding me.
I want to be more than just your friend Shahfah Rina.and you know that..and whatever may comes,i know GOD has plans for all of us..and with this NO REASON of love,i have truly understand what love is all about.and that i LOVE U SO MUCH..and much much more to come i hope.
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